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Sunday, March 20, 2011 at 5:32 AM
Dear reader, Right, so, i'm back to my normal life once again :D Well, probably for now i guess. Since it was rather hard to overcome those obstacles in my life, i managed to get past most of it! And yea, although i'm back to the normal me, it's kinda hard being 2 person at a time, trying to smile and not be sad. Its really tough you know? But i guess, its worth uh. Since i've been doing it since the past 1 year? Also, its been almost 1 year and a half living with a single lifehood, guess it has its benefits uh. But still, i prefer being attached, i don't really know how to explain the feeling but, its just that i really want to fall in love with the girl that appreciates me. For now, i guess there's none? Since only flirts revolves around me. Sigh. But then anyways, i'm still gonna remain optimistic, whats the use of living on if i don't go on the right path? :) |
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Tuesday, March 15, 2011 at 5:09 PM
Dear reader, Had Design and Technology classes today from 9 am - 3 pm, after that went home and switched on the computer, first thing was to check facebook and i guess, i saw something that made me stunned for a few seconds. But guess i should be really really really happy about isn't it? Hahas, and then, asked the next door girl to confirm if she's going out with me, and then again. I set my expectations too high.. So forget it. This 2 stuffs really dealt me a heavy blow, and i'm feeling like a pathetic person once again. I tried my best being optimistic. But i guess, i can't. So i'm probably considered a pathetic person. I really want to ask myself, Why should i fall in love? How to not fall in love? I seriously want to be a guy that doesn't loves. Its always i either get played or rejected. All this stuffs totally ruined my mood. |
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Wednesday, March 9, 2011 at 1:09 AM
Dear reader, Aye, i think i somehow, indirectly match-made some one after all those incidents, so, i think i'm feeling rather great, even thou its alittle, well, i'm over-reacting, who cares! Hahas, today, woke up at 5 and bathed, then changed and wet to find max and others to go the bukit gombak stadium. Well, i ran for the hawk house but in the end we got 2nd, as we didn't had enough people to participate in it, but still, i felt happy as hawk house won the best cheer-leading trophy ^^. And yea, max,haziq,elfie and weikit sure did the hawk house proud, same goes for hanif. Since they ran and took the 2nd medals for 100 x 4 relay run. So yea, today was a sort of "happy" day for me. Just hope i can keep up this optimistic view in my life and remove jealousy from my life too. :) |
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Monday, March 7, 2011 at 10:35 PM
Dear reader, Okay, back to blogging, 1st, i want to start off with this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=12yYQvGmpKI&feature=related Its really a nice piece of music played by Manabu Miwa, and Bruno Wen-li. Japanese people surely are full of talents <3 And somehow, this music made me wanna learn how to play a piano ._. Oh well, think its just another bashful thinking. Okay , going back to the main topic, i think, maybe, i still have feelings for her? I don't know, i just don't wanna get hurt too much, so i guess i'll just wait and see, afterall, she somehow got played by a guy. I wonder, why do girls go for the guys that don't like them instead of the ones that likes them? Makes my brain go crazy you know? Sigh, i just hope that i'm right? And i can handle the rejections and stop popping pills when i'm sad. Okay, time to sleep, bye! ^^ |
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Sunday, February 27, 2011 at 7:16 AM
Dear reader, Okay, gonna start on today. Woke up at 11, switched on the computer and whatever, and finally settled down on my computer. Then went to play dragonica for awhile. And today, i actually had an outing with the others. But then ended up not going as max couldn't made it due to family dinner, and so roughly, i estimated that jh wouldn't go too. So yea, continued playing dota and stoning most of the time. And yea, you know, despite i said i would forget her, its kinda hard for me, i don't know why, but my heart didn't really felt satisfied. But then, what's done is done isn't it? Hahahs, i realized that, i DO stone most of the time, i'm not sure why, but it's becoming a habit, good or bad, i'm not sure. I also want to thank my cousins, Marcus Chia and Nico Chia for consoling me that time, and telling me stuffs, well, at least they did managed to talk some sense into me. Was not really logical, but i accepted it in the end. :) And, going on, i'm wondering. Since this was the path i chose, what can i do now? Live on being a single, or wait for a girl that loves me? Or maybe even, don't find? But thinking it through, I'm vier! The always happy go lucky vier, which is always finding a stead. So i decided, to both, study and find a girl that's worthy. If i'm unable to, i'll just study till N's are over, so that i'll have even more time to find one. 1st Optimistic post of the year uh. Gambatteh Vier san! ^^ |
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Saturday, February 26, 2011 at 4:44 AM
Dear reader, Right.. I've decided to give her up to sj. Well. Since i can't do anything about it. Nor change the fact that i WILL lose. Seems like this is the only option left for me i guess. Also, i'm going to start on having optimistic thoughts. Although i doubt that i have the ability to hold on for a rather long time. Before i thought of all this, i was thinking what if she still likes me? What if she rejects him? What if she was sad, after looking at all those post about her? Even so, i didn't want to do this, but i guess, its for the better. For both her and me, i guess. So, as for the guy, i just wanna say to him, if you ever get her, treat her well, and care for her. She's a really nice girl. Just that she's a little pessimistic, but i believe you can change that. Good luck and last long when you get her. :) And so, i'm thinking of whether to lock my heart or not, since i'm always hurt so much, but then, i guess its alright, since i'm used to it. Maybe someday the right girl might come for me i hope. So yea, Last long you guys. (Should know who you two are.) |
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Wednesday, February 23, 2011 at 4:41 AM
愛するもの読者、 私は日本語を入力することに決めました。 その、私はどこで、そして、どの程度、将来にいるつもりです。確かな人生は、今日苛酷です。私は彼女の多くに向かって話して、iが彼女その他がいくらであるのを好むかについて、彼女にさえ話したしかし結局は、私は思います、私はまだ負ける終わりにいます？Soonjieには、確かに私に勝る最も高い利点があります。私の見苦しさと短かさのために。私はやられます。そのweihongケースを同じです。どんなに固くても、私は試みました。私は、まだやめなければなりませんでした。私は、生き続ける際に動機づけも失っていて、勉強してもいます。私は、ちょうど運命が私があればあなたに知らせるものに我慢することができません？私は深刻に似ているということを意味します、なぜ、女の子はすべてハンサムな人々を呼びに行きますか。そして、醜い人々は私自身が好きで、棚で捨てられます？ため息をついてください。私は、これにうんざりしています。私は、本当に再び泣きたい気分です。おそらく、2、3のpanadolsは、本当に助けます。iを望みます私の人生を変えます。 そして、私がこのポストで話している人に。私は、alotに本当にあなたを愛しています。しかし、あなたがsoonjie.に伴うほうを選ぶならば、私は推量します。Thatsが問題なくて、長いように、あなたは幸せです。あなたは、私自身のような敗者に決して満足でありません。ＯＫ。ありがとう、さよなら。 |
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