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Sunday, March 20, 2011 at 5:32 AM
Dear reader, Right, so, i'm back to my normal life once again :D Well, probably for now i guess. Since it was rather hard to overcome those obstacles in my life, i managed to get past most of it! And yea, although i'm back to the normal me, it's kinda hard being 2 person at a time, trying to smile and not be sad. Its really tough you know? But i guess, its worth uh. Since i've been doing it since the past 1 year? Also, its been almost 1 year and a half living with a single lifehood, guess it has its benefits uh. But still, i prefer being attached, i don't really know how to explain the feeling but, its just that i really want to fall in love with the girl that appreciates me. For now, i guess there's none? Since only flirts revolves around me. Sigh. But then anyways, i'm still gonna remain optimistic, whats the use of living on if i don't go on the right path? :) |
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Tuesday, March 15, 2011 at 5:09 PM
Dear reader, Had Design and Technology classes today from 9 am - 3 pm, after that went home and switched on the computer, first thing was to check facebook and i guess, i saw something that made me stunned for a few seconds. But guess i should be really really really happy about isn't it? Hahas, and then, asked the next door girl to confirm if she's going out with me, and then again. I set my expectations too high.. So forget it. This 2 stuffs really dealt me a heavy blow, and i'm feeling like a pathetic person once again. I tried my best being optimistic. But i guess, i can't. So i'm probably considered a pathetic person. I really want to ask myself, Why should i fall in love? How to not fall in love? I seriously want to be a guy that doesn't loves. Its always i either get played or rejected. All this stuffs totally ruined my mood. |
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Wednesday, March 9, 2011 at 1:09 AM
Dear reader, Aye, i think i somehow, indirectly match-made some one after all those incidents, so, i think i'm feeling rather great, even thou its alittle, well, i'm over-reacting, who cares! Hahas, today, woke up at 5 and bathed, then changed and wet to find max and others to go the bukit gombak stadium. Well, i ran for the hawk house but in the end we got 2nd, as we didn't had enough people to participate in it, but still, i felt happy as hawk house won the best cheer-leading trophy ^^. And yea, max,haziq,elfie and weikit sure did the hawk house proud, same goes for hanif. Since they ran and took the 2nd medals for 100 x 4 relay run. So yea, today was a sort of "happy" day for me. Just hope i can keep up this optimistic view in my life and remove jealousy from my life too. :) |
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Monday, March 7, 2011 at 10:35 PM
Dear reader, Okay, back to blogging, 1st, i want to start off with this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=12yYQvGmpKI&feature=related Its really a nice piece of music played by Manabu Miwa, and Bruno Wen-li. Japanese people surely are full of talents <3 And somehow, this music made me wanna learn how to play a piano ._. Oh well, think its just another bashful thinking. Okay , going back to the main topic, i think, maybe, i still have feelings for her? I don't know, i just don't wanna get hurt too much, so i guess i'll just wait and see, afterall, she somehow got played by a guy. I wonder, why do girls go for the guys that don't like them instead of the ones that likes them? Makes my brain go crazy you know? Sigh, i just hope that i'm right? And i can handle the rejections and stop popping pills when i'm sad. Okay, time to sleep, bye! ^^ |
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