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Sunday, January 30, 2011 at 9:02 PM
Dear reader, I don't know what to do. I'm really stressed. And sad. I just got rejected by jaslyn too. Well. Sort of. Sigh, and to think i left so much hope on her. Guess i got too over of myself. Ate 11 panadols to help me forget everything. But it didn't help much. I'm thinking of many suicidal tendencies, but i'm damn worried. Even you she rejected me. I still like her lots. But idk why, AM I SUCH A IDIOT. Doing so much for a girl. And i'm also losing hope in god. When i pray hard for the things i want, he didn't granted it. But those things which i didn't wanted, he granted it. Idk what the hell is wrong. But i'm going to be a really pessimistic person in life. Optimistic doesn't help much. Nor do anyone understands me. I'm sucha failure in life. Yesterday night, i walked under the rain for 1 hour+ alone. Cried like hell too. Wonder why am i sucha wussy in the 1st place. Sigh. 14th feb's gonna come soon too. I wonder why did humans even created a day like that. Its really crazy. |
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