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Tuesday, November 30, 2010 at 11:23 PM
Dear reader, Alright, Not much happened today so i'm gonna keep this post short. Woke up around 3+ and 1st thing i did was, on the computer. Afterthat went to wash up and so on. Played dragonica for almost 4-5 hours too. After that smsed her, but she took quite a long time to reply back. And later, sort of quarreled with her. I don't know how to put it. But i'm really tired of trying to get close to her and understand her. Sigh. So i kind of guess, She either doesn't like me or else doesn't want to have a relationship. So, i guess i'll keep to my oath? To wait for a girl that likes me to confess then i'll go after her. Anyways I'll go dota with max. So, thanks for reading :) |
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Monday, November 29, 2010 at 11:47 PM
Dear reader, Today, went out with the usual group at 1+. Was supposed to met them at 11 but cause of max which kept sleeping, so i didn't went early. And so we went to meet up with them, went to causeway and walked around. Also ended up taking the wrong bus. And later was kinda moody cause of what happened this few days. So took some panadols to de-stress me but ended up having headache. Later, talked to bl and gave her some pocky to eat. After that, we went to grab some food with the others. Sj and lk kept disturbing me as i was eating rather slow. But who cares? Food are meant to be eaten slowly, not fast. And later sent bl back home and went to find Jl and wh. At around 7-8, we left the group. Max, jh and i were heading back to eat supper and slack. After that, we talked about relationships and so on. And my mood was dropping. So after my mum called and pestered me to get home. I kinda lost it and just walked away. Sigh. I've not been getting much rest this few days. I just kept thinking and thinking no matter how many times i try not to. God damn. Am i really just like what max said? I didn't change at all? Sigh, and whats worst to boot, she just doesn't want to tell me her feelings about me. And i keep having thinking's that is bad bad bad. Sigh.Wished i could see what she was thinking about. God damn. Guess i'll do some soul searching 1st. So thanks for reading ya :) |
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Saturday, November 27, 2010 at 2:28 AM
  Dear reader, Okay, i'm finally done with minecraft. This is some of the stuffs i did ^ And i currently don't have much to post. So i guess i'll post tomorrow if i still have the mood to. Bye. :) |
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Wednesday, November 24, 2010 at 2:15 PM
Dear reader, Alright, sorry for not posting rather often. I was staying outside with a bunch of friends at chalet. So i'm just gonna roughly blog some parts of the incidents that happened. On 22nov, me and jh took the bus to cck mrt to meet likim, then we took the mrt to khatib Mrt station to meet up with Sj and others. Then later when we reached the chalet, we all just dumped our items in 1 corner and went out to get the items for the BBQ. And after that, we went back and started BBQing. Then later, mixed around with people i don't know, and made friends with them. After that, many many many things happened. One member from the group ran off, and somehow, i was the one who got picked to go after her. Oh well. Then. I chased up with her, talked to her for awhile. After that, walked her back to the chalet :\ And somehow, i felt that i've done something rather stupid. Like hugging her at the beach to not let her do anything stupid. Gosh. After that, jes and the others were drinking outside, so i just joined them and started drinking. And i kinda lost part of my memory the next morning (Y). So, next morning, we just did the usual stuffs ^^. And i went to fetch bl to the chalet. afterthat, went to lie on her lap( Felt kinda retarded). And then started getting tired. But in the end, i got dragged out to Escape theme park :O I actually had lots of fun thou. But was rather tiring. Later at night. Same stuffs happened. Same member ran out again ._. So, we quickly went to find them. And finally found them after we asked them. I also skipped many parts as some are rather hardcore and some are nonsense. So i'm gonna get back to my mine-craft. Ciaos! |
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Sunday, November 21, 2010 at 2:50 AM
Dear reader, Alright, had nothing much to blog this 2 days. Yesterday went to Juntian's house to learn how to play mahjong and ton. Before that, was out with sj,lk,yj,jh and bl at Lot 1. So after that, went to Jl's house to settle some stuffs. And not much, so yea. And, actually, was kinda interested in her. But then, puppy love i guess. Or maybe something else, its also kind of hard to get her. Well, i'm not going to give more details as, i don't think she'll be entering much into my life or whatsoever. So, okay, end of post. Ciaos :D |
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Thursday, November 18, 2010 at 4:03 PM
Dear reader, Just woke up from my sleep :\ Was really really tired as i slept 2 hours yesterday only. So i don't really have much to post for now, Might consider posting later or so :D So for now, MINECRAFT! |
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Wednesday, November 17, 2010 at 3:59 PM
Dear reader, Sorry for not blogging yesterday as i had 2 friends(Max and jianhui) staying over at my house and had to entertain them. So, yeah, we din't slept the whole night until morning i sent them off and went to sleep. Was damn shag as we kept playing mindcraft -__- . And later, i happened to found my duel master cards, brings back memories, so me and max went to play while jianhui laid on the sofa and rest. Guess i only slept for 2-3 hours as my family woke up rather early, so just turned on the computer and went to play dragonica ^^~ Andandand, i'm still missing the feeling :\ Of having a stead. Oh well ._. Guess i'll just keep waiting. |
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Tuesday, November 16, 2010 at 1:20 AM
Dear reader, Today, i officially give up on her. Although i went through many heart-breaking paths, i still made it through :) Sigh, earlier on, was at the chalet weihong hosted, and of course, me,jianhui and weikit were late. After that. took bus to city hall and mrt to pasiris. Later, we met up with the others at the chalet and slacked till night, then we started BBQ-ing after we bought the ingredients at Cheers. Then, i starting emo-ing once again, after seeing them doing the same stuffs again. Sigh. Sometimes, being observant is a bad thing. So i just kept looking and emoing. Took the cab home too as my mum was nagging at me to get home and cried in the cab -.-. Crying so much over a girl. Sigh. So, what i assumed yesterday was right. Nothing did happened. And god doesn't give chances. After all, what i tried doing in the past was all in vain. So, ya, I'm just going to wait for another girl? Or perhaps go for another? Or just study hard? I'm just going to spend my remaining days thinking and thinking. Back to my old life then. And for all this. Bye :) P.s: To her, if you're reading this. Do last long ya :) I'll give you both my blessings. |
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Sunday, November 14, 2010 at 11:54 PM
Dear reader, Yesterday, i woke up rather late as i had a conference call with Likim,venus and weihong. After that, slept at 6 and woke up at 11. Went to bath and later went to met up with jianhui, then we went to safra to meet up with the others and so on. Later, when they were playing pool, i was kinda of emo and sad, or maybe jealous too, as they kept, well. You'll get the meaning, so i tried to be strong, not to look and just listened to music, but in the end, tears were coming out from my eyes, so i quickly went out as not to let the others see me crying -__- . But in the end, almost half of the group went to comfort me, sigh. Guess i kinda owe them a thanks. So, went to send yujun home and so on. And ya, before that, we went to get the items for bbq-ing for chalet later. And of course, they were, doing some stuffs behind of course. Sigh. Wondered why was i so weak and can't hold back my tears ._. And, i guess, Today's the last day. What he may do, might maybe give me a chance or anything. Also, i might be giving up for good too but before that, I would just wish for god to give me just one chance. I would make full use of it. But, i guess its not really going to happen. Oh well.. |
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Saturday, November 13, 2010 at 12:15 AM
To whoever who is reading this, I'm still trying hard, and its been 3 days since they've stead. Sigh, Kinda jealous whenever my facebook newsfeed came out with something regarding them both, wished he didn't came to meet up with us -__- i know i'm a selfish guy, but one person can't be shared with two. Gosh. And later on, we're still having an outing, hopefully, i'm able to hold it all in. I wonder how long do i have to keep waiting :\ They say time is precious, but i guess its worth for her? After all, i might never know :\ Time will tell i guess.. So, i guess for now, i'll still continue being strong? and not be weak? Hah. But i can't deny that, i'm jealous of him luh, it should be me who deserved her and her love. Not him.. Oh well.. I guess i'll wait for the results then :) Ciaos~ :) |
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Friday, November 12, 2010 at 6:11 PM
Hmm.. Decided to pick myself up again and to stand strong. I've decided to wait for her not matter how long she takes :) Afterall, shes worth ^^ Thanks max,jianhui, and many many many others who helped me with everything. So thanks guys :) Really appreciate it lots! Although i'm not sure how long they will last or will she accept me if she's single, i'll still try my best to touch her :) So decided to be a positive person again ^^ |
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at 3:20 PM
Sigh. Once again, it all comes to vain. Yesterday. I tried really really hard to get her attention and others.. Guess i was just too late. They also stead-ed and they all actually tried to hide it from me. Guess i have jh to thank for telling me everything. Afterthat, went home to emo. And started getting sad and eventually instead of cutting. Just took out the guitar and played music. Was kind of hard to sleep. But i cried myself to sleep and finally slept at 6+. Sigh, was wondering why i can't just get what i want. Life is never fair i know. But is it possible to be unfair to this extent? Sigh and good guys do lose out. Tsk.. Oh well. Who cares anyways. |
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Thursday, November 11, 2010 at 2:20 AM
Sigh.. Finally gave her up. All along, i knew that i would be the one losing as usual.. After being scolded by max for cutting my hands and being stupid. I woke up. Finally.. And to think, it was all in vain :) Later on , weihong too was having same problems as me. From day 2, i already knew he was interested in her. Sigh. Guess i left too much hopes on again after max woke me up. After that counseled weihong. Talked to him. And finally i realized. I was actually the extra guy.. Sigh. After that, asked him a bunch of questions. And finally let her go. Guess it's indeed the right choice since she seemed happy with him. But of course, certain good things has its bad points. After that, i started to get sad. And finally cried. Also, chances aren't made, their given to people who deserves it. Guess i gave mine away. And won't be getting it back after all.. And what's more, tomorrow i have an outing with them again. And she and him's gonna be there.. Guess i'll be reverting back to the old vier.. Anyways, i'd like to thank whoever which is reading this, bothered to read. Love you :') |
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Wednesday, November 10, 2010 at 2:20 AM
Sigh, Went out today with sj and friends to vivo city to celebrate Jl's birthday. Nothing much happened today thou, only that i had to emo. When we went to watch movie, i kinda sat at 1 corner at cried. Sigh. Fail me. Guess that i'm officially giving up on venus.. Sigh. Afterthat, had to act strong and laughed along with them when they made jokes. Only jh and Lk knew as i told them about it. Afterthat, went home and cried again. Can't believed i actually lost to a sec1 in wooing a girl and get jealous when the guy played and laughed along with her.. I should just seriously get shot in the head. And there is 1 question i asked god everyday. Why me? Why not others? After several months of asking him, he still doesn't have an answer. So, i guess i'm just the unlucky one. Destined to be screwed day by day. So, thanks god for not giving me an answer and thanks my life for making me so upset :) |
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Tuesday, November 9, 2010 at 3:00 AM
Alright. I'm gonna resume blogging again. Since i need something/someone to listen to my problems. I've been thinking, is there karma in this world? If there is, why are those who don't deserve it, are getting good karma? While others which deserves it, doesn't ? Sigh, my life is totally screwed, as usual. Kinda met this girl from friends, went out for 1 day, got to know her well. But, Guess she's just another part of those people. Sigh. Been going to carpark's roof this few days to look at the skies. Its kinda nice despite having some buildings near-by. Games are also kind of getting boring. As well as the holidays. Also, its been 4 months since that incident. Wondering hows life going on for her despite what she did to me last time. 11:11 is rather useless for guys too i guess -__- , it doesn't work for me. So maybe for girls it does? Well, I don't really care much, since its not gonna improve my life. I'm also having an outing with them tomorrow, but i doubt i'll be making it. Since there's no reason for me to be there. My life as a 15 is also going rather fast, guess i'm gonna die faster as well? Hah. If only my life could be improved, maybe then other stuffs in my life will. Lovelife, studies etc etc. Ending post here, as i'm gonna go fb or something. Ciaos :) |
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